Musings of a Redhead


 Jco_PondOfEnchantmentHave you ever been enchanted by someone who stole your very soul? Have you ever been truly swept off your feet? Have you ever met your match? Found true love? Felt so completely at home with another that you know a lifetime in every moment?

I've always been a hopeless romantic. And I've always believed that love crosses all boundaries. If it's true, time and space cannot get in its way. It cannot be contained. Nothing will stop it. Love has a life of its own.

There is no logical explanation for it. It's a feeling, deep inside that you've come alive because that person is in your life, in your heart. Even when you're apart you feel close.

The air is charged and when you touch (even if his hand barely brushes your skin) -- you're excited -- electrified with energy; when you think of him, you smile. And when he's near, you're filled with joy.

There are no words that can express this kind of enchantment between two people. It's a rare gift. One that should be celebrated, not be taken for granted or trivialized. Even if it doesn't make sense. Especially if it doesn't make sense. Even if everything seemingly stands in the way -- nothing will stop it.

Because with this kind of connection, fairytales come true!

Painting credit: James Coleman

A Love Poem

NewmorningWhy are we here?

We are here to love.

What is Love?

Good question.

It’s a celebration

Not a chain or prison or obligation or burden.

It is a song.

It is the ability to live a lifetime with him in an hour

to feel more alive than you imagined

to forget yourself, your worries or commitments.

It is to be free.

It's what we live for.

I don't know anything

Trapped_in_a_bubble The truth is, I may not know a lot about things of importance, like world history or the latest trends (although I try to keep up). But I do know people and I know myself.

I trust myself and I know what it is to love and to have a passion for something. I know what it is to live truly and to appreciate each moment.

These are the things I want to share with you -- all the time!

I profess great words of wisdom like; "I will not let my life be ruled by fear" or "I will not allow my decisions to be determined by my financial situation" (which is the same thing – but not exactly). And I believe that living fearlessly is the best way to be free in life.  I think everyone can benefit from this outlook although many won't take heed or will be too driven by other things to see how they get in their own way.

This is not to say that there haven't been times when I've allowed fear or other factors to determine my behavior, choices, censor my communications, and even change my hairstyle. But restricting myself has never really worked for me.

So, I do my best to live in a way that doesn't steal my focus from my present experience. And I do this by making the decision to do so.

All it takes is to recognize that the only one limiting my life, myself and my desires. . . is me.

Finding Heaven. . .

Big2_3 The most poignant lessons I’ve learned in life have come from the relationships I’ve had. All relationships, yes, but most powerfully from my relationships with men.

Because the greatest insights, the most challenging struggles and the most impassioned encounters have been in my romances. It’s the matters of the heart that have impacted me most deeply.

I am the truest of true, die-hard, hopeless romantic.

I believe that love conquers all and that love is an indefinable, beautiful magic that lives in everyone.

I believe that love crosses all boundaries – time and space.  And that it is a force that cannot be contained. . .

I also believe that too often we don’t allow love to BE -- we try to manipulate it or cover it or something -- because  it is so powerful we're afraid it can consume us. 

But, would that really be so bad? What are we afraid of?

I am determined not to be . . . afraid.

I have a (wide) open heart, and because of this, many times I get hurt – but I never stop believing. My open-hearted nature is one quality which I have been blessed with. A quality that I wouldn’t change. Even if I could. It allows me to feel truly alive and experience life profoundly. 

I think this is why my life is so rich. Because I believe in love and I take risks over and over again. Not making the same mistakes – but always being willing to open myself up to the possibility of heartbreak.

Because in taking that risk . . .I just might find heaven.

Only NOW can I Live

Onemoment_3 The only way I know how to do it is to live now, in each moment. This moment is all we have – literally. There is no other.

I’m not saying I have no memories of previous events or hopes for the future. I even have worries sometimes, believe it or not. . . but I know that at the end of the day, my life is one moment long and if I’m true in that moment I’ll have no regrets and the memories will be magic.

I have had (and will continue to have) a fascinating life. As a matter of fact . . . I’m having a fascinating life right now.